it’s my party and i’ll cry if i want to.

4 03 2011

I’m in a beautiful house on the outskirts of Zion National Park.

My sister, Kourtney, is getting married in St. George this weekend.
Kournety manages the Zion Ponderosa Ranch – which thankfully allowed us to have access to some of the cabins here on the ranch.

Weddings are SO much more than a bride and groom getting married.

A bride and groom are basically party hosts trying to make sure their guests are happy.

You are planning the ultimate party.
Your guests are your friends, family and then those random people who seem to somehow get involved.

That is A LOT of pressure.

And the pressure gets to everyone at some point.

Oh the tears….

There are different levels of crying.
The tear up: This is usually what happens to me when I watch a touching movie.
The gentle trickle: This happens when a couple tears escape the eyes after a good tear up.
The soft sob: A steady flow of tears with some muffled sniffling.
The steady sob: Steady tears with no attempt to silence the sniffling.
The ugly cry: Gushing tears, lots of loud strange noises, a runny nose. Basically this occurs when crap hits the fan and you lose all inhibitions.

Weddings have a way of bringing out the ugly cry.

It is the most interesting dynamic.
There might be lots of varying levels of crying along the way – BUT when the day arrives, it’s as if none of that even happened and everyone laughs and has a great time.

Being out here for my sisters wedding reminds me of the emotional rollercoaster that a wedding takes you on.

You think it’s all over once you’re married.
But so far it seems like that little rollercoaster was the first of many.
And that marriage day filled with bliss and happiness is also just the first of many.

But in all the chaos of preparing and enjoying a wedding, it’s great to remember the real reason for all of the stress…

“And in order to obtain the highest, a man must enter into this border of the priesthood meaning the new and everlasting covenant of marriage.” (D&C 131:2)

? Was your wedding planning stressful or easy?


10 12 2010

Jake is next in line to join the family.

He proposed and Kourtney accepted and they’ll be married in St. George next March.

I have spent a little bit of time with him – not as much as we got with Dallas – but I’ll take what I can get get.

Kourtney used to date a guy named Jarrett.
I loved him. He was pretty much perfect and we all thought he was going to join the family someday.

But then he went on a mission, she moved to the ranch and then started dating Josh.

Never a big fan of Josh. (I didn’t really hide it well either)
He was a cool person, but it never seemed to click right between all of us.

Now she’s on her 3rd guy with “J” name.
I never thought I’d like anybody as much as Jarrett – but I was wrong.

Jake, you’re the man.
I’m excited for you to join the family – you fit perfectly and it’s going to be great having you around at family stuff from now on.

Welcome to the tribe…
“they were divided into tribes, every man according to his family…” (3 Nephi 7:14)

? Have you ever not liked somebody that a close friend or family member was going to marry?

I’m back.

13 09 2010

Yeah, I know-I haven’t written in almost two weeks.
But, I’ve been busy.

Just the usual stuff, you know, like: work, getting married, honeymooning, moving…
Nothing too crazy.

It’s been the best two weeks of my life. Incredibly crazy leading up to the wedding and incredibly relaxing the week after.

I thought about writing while I was in the middle of everything. But I felt like just enjoying the moment. I’m glad I did. I’ll fill you in on the details of things over the next few weeks amidst my usual day-to-day ramblings.

I have to admit my temple attendance is less than stellar- and by less than stellar it’s been almost non-existent. Lame. I have no excuses. But I had the opportunity to go through the temple with Leah when she went for the first time.

I don’t have a lot of experiences to compare it with – but it was by far the most special experience I’ve had in the temple. I was overwhelmed when I saw her there dressed in white. I choked up as the big picture formed in my head.

Leah is my best friend.
The temple is all about returning to Heavenly Father.
Getting married means I can be with my best friend forever.

Yeah, the big picture looks amazing.

“That bodies who are of the celestial kingdom may possess it forever and ever…” (D&C 88:20)

What a great feeling…

? Which temple did you go through for the first time?

the interview.

24 08 2010

I’m less than two weeks away from getting married.

That means that tonights interview was with the Bishop!
Oh Yeah!

There is something about interviews that has always made me a little uneasy. (I attribute this to my sliding scale of obedience)
Even when I have been on my best behavior I’ve always been a little nervous going into interviews.

I feel like there is always something else I could or should be doing better. So when they I get asked if I feel worthy to go to the temple I always have a little hesitation in my gut. I could try my very hardest and still come up short of perfect cleanliness.

“…and no unclean thing can dwell with God…” (1 Nephi 10:21)

So, of course there is always this tiny lingering feeling of unworthiness.

I’m not sure I’ll ever get past that. I may never feel like I am totally clean and ready to just be in His presence.

Well, the Bishops interview is done – now there is just the Stake President on Sunday!

? Do you ever feel like you are 100% clean?

gentle rebuke.

30 06 2010

“Reproving betimes with sharpness, when moved upon by the Holy Ghost; and then showing forth afterwards an increase of love toward him whom thou hast reproved…” (D&C 121:43)

Yep – I’ve been reproved.

I got back this morning and Grandpa inquired when my last visit to the temple was…

This is sad – because off the top of my head, I actually cannot remember the last time I went.

That can’t be good. It’s actually quite bad.

I was reminded this morning that if there is enough time to go to the driving range multiple times a week then there is surely enough time to go to the temple.

I stand corrected and I am grateful for the reminder. (Mom actually made me promise several weeks ago that I would start going once a week- sorry Mom)

I am so happy with how this scripture blog is going and the daily effect it has had on my own personal testimony – but it is interesting that complacency has still managed to creep into my life.

It is a daily struggle – no matter how good you feel about where you’re headed it is important to realize that there are no breaks in the race.
There is no room for complacency and the only way to avoid that is to be CONSTANTLY on guard.

I’m glad grandpa said something.
I needed to hear it.

As a whole, we all have good intentions BUT;
the road to hell is paved with good intentions, right? Yeah.

Sometimes we need someone on the road to tell us to straighten up and keep moving forward.

The key is to make sure we listen to those individuals Heavenly Father sends our way – and to not be afraid to be that person for someone else.

? How do you overcome complacency?

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